What follows are my thoughts about what causes depression. From my perspective, the medical profession hasn’t figured this phenomenon out – the best they can do is prescribe a drug, which may or may not help people cope, but it doesn’t cure depression. If you’ve ever stood at a pharmacy counter looking at all the little packages of drugs waiting to be picked up, you would think the whole world is on some kind of drug. Once upon a time, I too was susceptible to periods of depression, so this topic is one I’m particularly familiar with. While attending a yoga teacher training in 2007, my teacher, Baron Baptiste greatly helped facilitate curing my depression once and for all. Yes, cure!
We’ve all felt at some point in our lives unworthy, inadequate, unappreciated, unwanted, unheard, unloved, and under-valued. No one is free from these feelings that are fundamental to our being. In Yoga philosophy, this feeling of unworthiness is called anava-mala – the source of incompleteness and separation we feel deep inside ourselves. Anava-mala creates the illusion of lack of self-worth that is so powerful – we believe it to be true, and then our sense of being imperfect and incomplete affects everything we perceive. Whatever we believe about ourselves is what we project to the outside world and other people. Those beliefs are then what the outside world and others believe about us. In Yoga philosophy, this “illusion” is called maya. Anava-mala is a part of maya – it conceals the real and projects the unreal.
My anava-mala manifests as, “I don’t belong.” When I discovered my anava-mala in 2007, my life took a positive new direction. Up until 2007, I manifested “I don’t belong” in every part of my life since I was a child. If your heart is beating, you have anava-mala – this primal sense of being separate, it’s an inherent human quality. Finding our true anava-mala isn’t easy to do. Our ego is very clever – it will trick us into thinking it is something else. Ego fights us to not discover this truth. Once we see the truth, the lies we believe can no longer survive. Knowing this quality exists within us and everyone else may be a huge relief in itself. We are not separate and incomplete, nor is anyone else – it’s only an illusion. Think of maya as the man behind the curtain in the Wizard of Oz – concealing the real and projecting the unreal.
The doubts we have about being able to accomplish the things in life we really wish to attempt originates from anava-mala. No one else has the doubts we have about ourselves, which is why anava-mala is an illusion – we’re the only one having the experience of doubt and self-worth. Turning our power over to someone else is another way anava-mala manifests in our lives. Finding false reasons to justify our actions and behaviors is another. Not being perfect is the biggest excuse we use to justify our actions and behaviors. If we think we have to protect and hide some part of ourselves, we will never be completely truthful with others. If we believe we are not worthy in some way, that belief will influence our reasoning and justifications. Anava-mala manifests into our actions and choices because we don’t think we’re enough as we are. The scarecrow, tin-man, and cowardly lion also believed they weren’t enough and lacked something inside themselves. The underlying desire of everyone is to feel worthy, appreciated, wanted, heard, seen, loved, and valued.
The multitude of ways in which we create separation is due to anava-mala. These include rejecting ourselves, comparing and judging ourselves, looking outside ourselves for validation, trying to make ourselves look better than someone else, pretending to be someone we are not, lying, and trying to prove ourselves. We don’t need anyone or anything outside ourselves to validate our existence. We are not separate from God, we are not incomplete, and we are not unworthy. What we’ve been seeking our entire lives is simply to be who we are. Whatever our self-worth issues may be, they are nothing more than God calling us home to remind us we are never alone.
Understanding and defying my lie, “I don’t belong” was enough to end my periods of depression forever. While writing my second book, Warrior Truth, I made some fascinating discoveries related to anava-mala and consciousness. What caused me to “spiral down” into depression? Why did I feel so awful and why did it not last very long? I would come out of these depths rather quickly and without any medications. Now that we have a basic understanding of anava-mala, we can now explore consciousness and how all of this relates.
The first thing we have to understand is the nature of consciousness. Everything is consciousness – EVERYTHING! Consciousness is the invisible field of energy of infinite dimension and potentiality, the substrate of all existence – formless, independent of time, space, and location – yet all-inclusive and all present. Because everything is consciousness – everything radiates a specific frequency that can be measured – including human beings. That which is not true is not recognized by the field of consciousness – we cannot measure anything that isn’t a Reality. The human body can accurately discern the difference between what is true and what is false. In response to questions or statements that are true, a strong muscle reaction occurs in the body. In response to false questions or statements, a weak muscle reaction occurs. Truth is not a simple yes or no, but is able to be measured over a logarithmic scale from 1 to 1,000. The average consciousness of mankind right now is 207.3. About eighty percent of the population on the planet measures below 200 – the tipping point between those who are problem people as opposed to solution people calibrating above 200. The average increase for any individual in their lifetime is only five points. A tenth of a point in either direction is a huge increase or decrease in power.
The capacity of our minds to understand and comprehend truth depends on our individual level of consciousness. Each level results in a definition of truth that is in harmony with our specified level. Each and every one of us experiences, perceives, and interprets the world according to our own level of consciousness. The presumption is that whatever we perceive and experience represents Reality. One of the more fascinating aspects of consciousness research is the fact that we are all born with a specific level of consciousness and our level of consciousness has the freedom to move up and or down. The effects from extreme loss of consciousness can have devastating results. For example, Timothy McVeigh, the man who bombed the Federal building in Oklahoma City, his level of consciousness at birth was 338, a very healthy number. The day of the bombing, his level of consciousness was 19. Catastrophic events that occur time and again that seem to have no apparent cause most often relate to extremely low levels of consciousness. As a society, we search for reasons as to why these events happen – never once considering the “real” cause.
Comprehending life has been through the understanding of a linear model – logical, reasonable, and rational – attempting to make the incomprehensible comprehensible. Expanding our understanding to a non-linear, intuitive, unseen world, we begin to understand how life and human behavior really works. In the last sentence of the preceding paragraph, I mention “real cause.” There are no causes in the observable world – the observable world is a world of effects – cause is a concept that has no actual existence in Reality. The “real cause” is consciousness itself. The effect is always confused with being the cause – the effect is never the cause! Cause and effect are actually occurring simultaneously – the cause of our actions originates from our consciousness. My belief is low levels of consciousness is actually the cause for depression and many other human behavioral disorders. Depression calibrates between 143 and 124. One of the more popular anti-depressants on the market today calibrates at 84. Treating low levels of consciousness with low level substances can have devastating results, in my opinion.
Because we can’t see consciousness, some may doubt its existence – or if it does exist, some may believe it exists equally for everyone. We all have different levels of consciousness and because of this variety – we have a wide range of human behavior. Some behaviors we can’t explain, so we label and treat the effects with drugs hoping to get a different effect, often overlooking the cause. Consciousness evolves very slowly because we confuse the effects with being the cause. 2,000 years ago the average level of consciousness in humans was 100.
There are many reasons why it’s important to raise and or maintain our level of consciousness. The most important reason is our happiness. From levels 200 to 300, 60% of people are happy – life is good. From levels 100 to 200, a dramatic decrease occurs – only 15% of people are happy. From 300 to 400, 70% are happy; from 400 to 500, about 80%; from 500 on up, nearly 100% are happy.
If you or someone you know is exhibiting depression like symptoms, a lowering of consciousness is most likely the cause. So how does someone restore their birth level of consciousness? Our society is programed to pop a pill for whatever ails us. All of the anti-depressant drugs I’ve measured are all in the 80’s. Putting low level consciousness substances in our bodies is not going to help restore our level – lower level drugs hold lower levels of consciousness in check. We have to think about a holistic approach to depression. If it were me, I would stop taking the anti-depressant drugs immediately. We want to saturate every aspect of our body, mind, and spirit with high consciousness levels. That means eating food that came from the earth – real food – no junk food. Wine calibrates at 766 – vodka, 82. My advice would be to stop drinking until you feel more like your normal self. If you smoke commercial cigarettes, they calibrate at 82. Organic tobacco calibrates at 736. You are better off rolling your own cigarettes and smoking organic tobacco. Listen to classical music – especially Bach and Mozart – most of the great music in history calibrates in the 900’s. Get outside and exercise – go for a walk and take in all of nature. It’s everywhere! Read good books. Somehow I knew to read anything by the Dalai Lama when I was at my lowest. I won’t read anything that isn’t above 500. Perhaps the most important thing we can do is to ask God to restore our birth consciousness. That may be a big leap of faith for many, but do it anyway – God cannot say no.
Whatever awful thing you believe about yourself, understand that it is not true – it is NOT true! When your inner voice whispers to you that you are not good enough, tell it to shut up and go away – each and every time! It won’t take too long for it to get the message that you aren’t buying what its selling. Anava-mala can be powerful enough, in my opinion, to lower levels of consciousness. Of course, life’s events can certainly lower levels of consciousness to frightening degrees. Attempted suicide calibrates at 52. Two points lower and suicide can be completed.
These are my ideas and thoughts regarding depression. If you try to understand consciousness through human reason, it will be challenging to fully comprehend what I have just written. If you or someone you know is prone to depression and your current treatment isn’t working – give what I shared a try – what do you have to lose? You will most likely start noticing results very quickly. It may only be a matter of a few days before your birth level is restored. You can read more about the phenomenon of consciousness from the man who discovered it can be measured – Dr. David Hawkins. His first book, Power vs. Force is his most popular. My new book, Warrior Truth discusses consciousness at length. If you have tried everything I told you to do without any results, contact me and I’ll look into what might be happening with you. A lot of people experience depression and are afraid to tell someone. Anti-depressant drugs aren’t “anti” anything – that’s also a lie. I believe those types of drugs take your consciousness even lower to make you numb to life. I’ve experienced success personally and with others with this understanding. My prayer is to help more people recover their sovereign birth right and end depression forever.